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Lillian  

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  • Wannabe Poet
  • Female/United States
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october

Journal Entry: Mon Oct 9, 2006, 10:26 PM
  • Listening to: Trouble with Love
  • Reading: romance novels
  • Watching: The Notebook
  • Eating: cookie dough
  • Drinking: dr peper
So now its october. *sigh* im lonely as all hell still. and im not doing anything to really fix it. so i really shouldn't be complainnig but never the less i am. idk its just hard to see so many with that other half it just gets to u after a while. i have my friends so its not that bad but still friends only go so far. everywhere i look sum1 is happy with some1 else and it just hurts. i guess im just lonely, you know the feeling, when your sitting there and all of a sudden u just get hit with this huge mack truck of lonelyness. well hat is what ive been feelingfor the last couple of weeks. it just makes u wanna cry, thats also what ive been doing these past couple of weeks. i guess its just being without that love that i found and lost. i know is been like 6 months now but i still cant seem to get over it. any advise from the people that know what im talking about?

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 18
  • Current Residence: Middle of the damned desert!
  • Interests: writing, reading, makin' out...the usal...you know!!
  • Favourite movie: Phantom of the opera
  • Favourite band or musician: Rascal flatts
  • Favourite genre of music: country
  • Favourite artist: Scale of draconis!
  • Favourite poet or writer: shakespeare
  • Operating System: windows
  • MP3 player of choice: jorje
  • Skin of choice: mine
  • Favourite game: sex (yellow running car game sicko!)
  • Favourite gaming platform: playstataion 2
  • Favourite cartoon character: Tinkerbell
  • Personal Quote: If at first you don't succeed, cuss at it and give it a good kick!
  • Tools of the Trade: pencil, music and my heart breaks!

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Devious Comments

~ThatGuyTravis:iconThatGuyTravis: Mar 29, 2008, 11:38:37 AM
You lied to me. You said that you'd be with me. I don't know why I was stupid enough to actually believe that. It's been so long since I've talked to you and even longer since I have seen you. But you still stay on my mind all the time and I can't stop thinking of you. I know it's too late and that you've long since moved on and I hate you for that. I wanted to be there for you, for anything that might happen. I guess loving you with all my heart wasn't enough for you. Somehow you needed more. After everything that we talked about, after all the things that I had believed would come true, you gave up on everything that could have been us. I doubt I'll ever understand why. I know that I'm not a perfect guy but I would have done anything to change just to be with you. But now it's too late, and that'll never happen. You'll never read this,you'll never know how I felt and still feel, and you'll go on with your life completely ignorant of me. If only I could be so lucky.
~Travis-Is-Here:iconTravis-Is-Here: Nov 13, 2006, 9:45:23 PM
What up punk?:glomp: haha Hey you need to call me on my cell sometime cuz for some reason I can't find your number anymore.

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Hi there! :D

Please read my story "The Lone Hunter" and tell me what you think please.


[Part 1]

[Part 2]


Thanks!!! :D
~demonlilmoo:icondemonlilmoo: Oct 18, 2006, 7:41:09 AM
hahaaha good job travis!

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I love to kill bunnies with pencils!!!!! Die pretty bunny die!! :bunny: :stab:
~Travis-Is-Here:iconTravis-Is-Here: Oct 10, 2006, 7:38:34 PM Mood: Joy
Hey!!! After a couple tries I finally found out how to get on this damn thing. I'm still confused about a few things but I don't really care now. I'm just happy I figured it out hahaha

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Hi there! :D

Please read my story "The Lone Hunter" and tell me what you think please.


[Part 1]

[Part 2]


Thanks!!! :D
~Scilik:iconScilik: Apr 23, 2006, 1:21:01 AM
dont you hate how im watching you? makes me feel like a stalker lol ;o i just wanna see if you actually put some more poetry on here, its good stuff you know ;)

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"Out, you green sickness carrion!"
~Scilik:iconScilik: Apr 16, 2006, 12:09:27 PM
bother reading everything i say this time? seriously. theres a lot of good in there with those "cuss words" (lol....)

your so predictable its fucking disgusting -.-;;; you act like im just some piece of shit "that used you" in your words. USED YOU FOR FUCKING WHAT?! WHAT THE FUCK WOULD I FUCKING USE YOU FOR!? think about it. actually THINK about it... you think i used you, for sex? thats stupid. i don't even fucking care about having sex, unless its in love goddamnit and i dont want to hear any shit on that subject. if you really think about it lil, there was nothing i coukdve used you for. you think i didnt care? fine i dont mind. think what you please. you think that i dont care? well, then your ignorant. you think id message you after your stupid fucking kill men journal entry? thats just fucking dumb. of course i care. think what you will, ask what you will, say whatever the fuck you want but know this... whether i loved, love, hated or hate, i still care about you as a person, if you died i would care, if your sad i care, it means something to me to know that your hurting goddamnit and if you dont want to come to terms with that fact, then dont bother answering this fucking message. and dont turn this around on me " get over it jesse, were through" bullshit. I FUCKING KNOW!!! im just trying to help goddamnit, you know i cant deal with these things, you know sometimes i have trouvble saying the right thing, but whatever. again, enjoy turning it around again. you live to piss me off dont you... all that matters to me is that the people i know and care for are happy, or at least mildly content. why else would i waste time out of MY LIFE to bother talking to you about this shit.

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"Out, you green sickness carrion!"
~demonlilmoo:icondemonlilmoo: Jan 13, 2006, 10:37:26 PM
hello u be my bestest buddy! of course my da page will be full of ur art!!!!!:P

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I love to kill bunnies with pencils!!!!! Die pretty bunny die!! :bunny: :stab:
~scaleofdraconis:iconscaleofdraconis: Jan 10, 2006, 5:14:49 PM
Why, thank you for the fav, my dear friend
~scaleofdraconis:iconscaleofdraconis: Nov 7, 2005, 4:20:03 PM
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Send to 10 of your friends to show
them how much luv u have for them. If u get this back it means u r luved 2x as much
~Scilik:iconScilik: Sep 17, 2005, 8:10:45 PM
they have an emote for this? :burntout: :dead: :sicktohimself: :grief: :ifuckedupeverythingformyself: :forgive me...?:


be happy... it's good to see that you have a guy that can care about you lillian, im very happy to know that. if only i would have, could have, i know i should have, seen just how great you were, and such a loss for me to not be part of that, to not be blessed with your love, but i am happy with the good memories i have lil, i hope maybe one day we can look back and smile, and forget the pain, the grief. forget everything i put you through, my selfishness, my bad habits, my screwups. and maybe look beyond, into the fun we had. those times during lunch when we could just sit in the theatre room, forget what it was called. when we just sat and talked. they were the good times, things we should look back and remember. now my part in the story of your life is over, but i dont regret it lillian. im happy that we had what we had, no matter how badly it ended, it was such a gift, i see that now. if things could have been differently.. but that doesnt matter now. im happy for you. live, enjoy life, and tell dustin not to be like me :smile: take it easy, lil. be safe, wake up in the morning like you mean it.

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"Out, you green sickness carrion!"
~PunkGothKitty:iconPunkGothKitty: Sep 17, 2005, 12:12:34 PM
OH! haha hi hi lilly

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EEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! :fork: :D
~demonlilmoo:icondemonlilmoo: Sep 16, 2005, 11:08:31 PM
I am happy. dustin is awesome he gave me flowers and a card today cuz he was thinkin about me all day. he's a great guy and i'm lucky to have someone who actually pays attention to me with out haveing to "intice" him.

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I love to kill bunnies with pencils!!!!! Die pretty bunny die!! :bunny: :stab:
*str8boy:iconstr8boy: Sep 16, 2005, 3:59:09 PM
lol oh baby! you know i do! ;D

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The Last Mariachi
~Scilik:iconScilik: Sep 16, 2005, 9:47:04 AM
you seem happy..

its good that one of us can be ok. dont srift back on my account, continue life as its meant to be lived. and no, im not telling you what to do, im just suggesting that you dont live your life like me.

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"Out, you green sickness carrion!"
~Scilik:iconScilik: Sep 16, 2005, 9:43:32 AM
v.v;

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"Out, you green sickness carrion!"
~demonlilmoo:icondemonlilmoo: Sep 15, 2005, 11:57:16 PM
HEY KRIS!!!!! U SEXY THANG!!! u rock my sox!!!!

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I love to kill bunnies with pencils!!!!! Die pretty bunny die!! :bunny: :stab:
*str8boy:iconstr8boy: Sep 15, 2005, 4:16:46 PM
LILLY!?!?

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The Last Mariachi
~demonlilmoo:icondemonlilmoo: Sep 10, 2005, 11:54:19 PM
I am SOOOOOOO HAPPY *does the W007 dance*

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I love to kill bunnies with pencils!!!!! Die pretty bunny die!! :bunny: :stab:
~demonlilmoo:icondemonlilmoo: Aug 31, 2005, 7:18:31 AM
hey thankx for the welcome!!!!! i feel loved:) :)
~Manari:iconManari: Aug 29, 2005, 3:39:45 PM
hey ya lil!!! howz it goin????


(iz monica if u was wonderin.....)

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Peace. Love. Happiness.
~Japgirl:iconJapgirl: Aug 28, 2005, 10:56:27 PM
AWESOME!!! best friend of Scale!! ^^
welcome welcome! if you have any questions... don't hesitate to ask!!
oh yeah... have a cookie :cookie: they are yummy~

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you can put money in machine to get soda, but you can't put in soda to get money. u_u

サンキュー 友達たち! :blowkiss:
~demonlilmoo:icondemonlilmoo: Aug 28, 2005, 9:55:14 PM
lol awesum!!!! so i am now on Deviantart!!!!!!W007!!!!111
~scaleofdraconis:iconscaleofdraconis: Aug 28, 2005, 9:42:56 PM
hey hey hey! I got your first pageview! But of course I would...being your best friend and all XD